Happy Anniversary

Today is my 20th wedding anniversary.  I cannot believe that it has been 20 years since I said " I Do."   If someone would have showed me 20 years ago a movie of the current state of our marriage on that sunny April 2nd Saturday afternoon, I would not have believed it and I would have proceeded with the wedding ceremony.  Knowing what I know now,  I have to ask myself, if  I could have a "do over"  would I  get married?  Hind sight is always 20/20 vision.  I can honestly say I would.  Everything that has transpired over the last 20 years has made me the person I am today.  All the good, the bad, and the ugly.
There was a point in my life when I thought God had forgotten about me and that I was being punished for something because my marriage was pure hell.   I hurt so badly that I thought death has got to be better than this awful life.  I was really angry at God and blamed Him for this miserable existence.  At that point, I don't think I even loved myself.  What stopped me from "moving forward" in the wrong direction was I thought about my children.  Is this the memory I wanted to leave for my girls?   I love them too much to do this to them.  The truth is that my heavenly Father loves me too much to inflict pain and suffering on me.  I stopped feeling sorry for myself and playing the blame game because no one ever wins.
 Thank you God for loving me and never giving up on me even when I wanted to give up !
I always end my posting with something positive and today will not be any different.  Today on my 20th wedding anniversary I celebrate the fact that I am the mom to three amazing and talented young ladies, I love the woman I have matured into, and my spouse and I are peacefully Moving Forward!

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