The first time we separated years ago, I was by myself. Initially,we did not have any children. A few months after we separated, I became pregnant. I could not believe that this was happening. I thought why would God allow this to happen and my husband and I were not together? Shouldn't the moment when you find out your expecting your first child with your husband be a joyous one? Well, in a perfect world it would be but life is not perfect. I was angry, scared and lonely. This is not what I signed up for. Where was my happily ever after? Apparently it was only in the Disney movies. This was the old me.
I am truly thankful for the more positive me. Years ago I thought it was hard with one child and I did not know if I would be able to handle it. This time around there are three and I am thankful for them. They are really doing well. Of course they miss their dad but there have not been any major problems. They enjoy the time that they spend with him.
This time around I know that we will be fine. I traded in angry, scared, and lonely for happy,courageous, and peaceful. I like the person I see when I look in the mirror and the woman that I am developing into. I look forward to making new memories and having good times. Also, I look forward to a bright future with anticipation that great things are coming our way. Is everyday going to be a happy one? Of course not. But I am thankful that I have learned over the years that when life gives you lemons, make lemonade. It will be as sweet or sour as I choose it to be. I like my lemonade sweet!
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