Lately, my estranged husband has
been on my mind. I
don’t want to reconcile, but I find myself reminiscing about fun times and funny
moments that we had with the girls. I'm pretty sure this is a part of that emotional roller coaster you experience when going through divorce. It
is true what they say about an idle mind.
I will be honest and admit that there have been days when I think “Am I
doing the right thing?” Even though we are in a good space, I have to check
myself and remember the reasons we are not together and why I filed for divorce. We have changed
for the better as people,but some of the issues cannot be repaired. Just because you are good people does not mean that you are good together. You have to forgive yourself and the other person to be free and just move
on. I am definitely not trying to live in the past
or open up old wounds. I just want to make sure I am changing lanes safely. On the road of life (just like driving a car) in order to change lanes safely, you have to do a
quick head check to make sure the way is clear and that there are no obstacles
in your way as you change lanes and proceed to Move Forward.
I hear u and I totally understand. I had a lil of tht as well but had gone thru the emotional roller coaster during the latter years. By the time divorce came I was ready. I couldn't believe it because we had been together over 30 yrs! However they weren't all 30 good yrs. After he was gone from our home, I gained some clarity of the full picture. I was able to remember good times.and remember it wasnt all bad. I couldn't even think abt tht while he was there. It was the right decision and the right time. I will always love him but hadn't been in love with him in a while. I still care abt him and I'm his health careagent and POA;he's in a nursing home now. There were times I would visit and had to hold back the tears, as I couldn't believe it had come to this. Life goes on as decisions we make carve our path course. We can change over time,thusly changing things and some relationships. I'm stronger, wiser, happier and more content because thru it all God was my ROCK! #wemovefwd
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