Just the other day, my estranged spouse was talking to me about taking the girls on a trip for spring break and asked if I would go. I said no. I began to search the recesses of my mind because I clearly remember telling him before that I would not travel with him and our children like everything was fine. We had to start doing things differently. Maybe he thought I would change my mind. I am not trying to live in the past. I am truly going on without him. There are times that I think he forgets that things have really changed and that the marriage is over. I am sensitive of his feelings to an extent. We were together for many, many years as husband and wife so old habits die hard. But, I am not willing to comprise myself and all of the hard work I have done to get to this place in my life where I am happy. I refuse to go backwards! In the words of Sweet Brown,
"Ain't Nobody Got Time For That!"
I know in time he will move forward at a faster pace. There are times that I wish it were sooner than later. People fear change and the unknown. Therefore, holding on to the past and what is familiar is a place of comfort. In the interim, I remain thankful that we are friends and loving parents to our girls as I continue to Move Forward.
“If you can't fly then run, if you can't run then walk, if you can't walk then crawl, but whatever you do you have to keep moving forward.”
― Martin Luther King Jr.
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