When I filed for divorce last year, I naively thought that it would be over in a few months. I learned that this is not how this thing works. Recently, I received a text from my attorney advising me that a court date has been scheduled. I looked at the text message for a while before I actually responded to it. Even though I knew the time would come and I sometimes impatiently waited (just being honest) for news regarding a hearing date, I was caught off guard. Hmm??? Well, I guess this is really happening now. Although I'm not in love, I do love him. If just loving someone was enough, I guess no one would ever get divorced. It is bitter sweet but this is a part of the process in Moving Forward and I am ready.
I am learning that each step in the divorce process brings a different type of emotion. Even if you initiate the divorce proceedings, it is still emotional. God made us emotional beings so they serve a purpose and aid in the healing process so don't suppress them, just flow with them. If you ever feel as though your emotions are getting the best of you, it is good to seek medical intervention. God gifted some to be physicians and they were placed here in the earth to help. Unfortunately in some ethnic groups, you are perceived to be "crazy" and might be criticized if you see a therapist or a psychiatrist. Personally, I think it takes a really strong person to admit they have a problem and seek help for it. Self examination is a difficult but necessary task. The real "crazy" people are those who don't seek help and continue to live a miserable existence and make things chaotic for everyone around them.
