March Madness !

We have come to a bump in the friendship road that we have been travelling on for this past year.  A few weeks ago we had a major disagreement of opinion regarding our daughters.  So much so that we were only communicating if it was something regarding the girls.  We eventually pushed pass this. We agreed to disagree but for me, things changed.  To be honest, I really didn't want to be friends with him any more.  I could live with being cordial for the sake of the girls.  We started again on the friendship road.  Fast forward to earlier this week, here we go again.  I am asking God, what in the heck is going on?  Here we go again with another issue! This  !$#hit is getting on my nerves!  I am done with this foolishness! What happened to the friendship?  Even as I write this today, I am not sure how we came to this point.  I believe that because we are at different stages of the grieving process of the end of this marriage, things are really becoming challenging.  I also know that hurt people, hurt people.  I had to remind myself that you can't keep doing the same thing and expect a different result.  It is ok to be angry momentarily, but I can not stay angry.  I also looked at myself to see if there was anything different that I could have done. I had to bite my tongue at one point so the situation would not be worse.   After a self evaluation, I would give myself a B.   This may sound biased because this is my blog and I am expressing my feelings, but I also know the old me.  The old me would have handled this verrrrrrrrrrry differently and would not care if we ever spoke again in life, kids or not.  Thank God I am not that person any more.

It is unfortunate that the friendship is no longer as it was, but I strongly believe that everything happens for a reason and I did find some positive things to pull from the negativity.  For right now, things are just working best for us with limited interaction.  I am still  Moving Forward!